Just Simply Holly

OK, to be honest, I won’t forget about California, but after looking at the beautiful Winter Park real estate homes that I’ve just looked at, I’m ready to head for the mountains!

When I was in my 20’s I went on a sort of cross country adventure with my original destination being the Denver area. I’ll never forget my first view of the Rocky Mountains, it was one of the most amazing sights I’ve ever seen in my life. The pictures I had seen over the years couldn’t come close to doing justice to their true beauty! And I swore that that would not be the last time I viewed the mountains in person!

My husband and I have talked a few times over the years about what we’d do if we ever struck it rich and won the lottery. I told him that I’d buy some land near the Rockies that would allow me to build my dream home and enjoy a view of one of nature’s most beautiful scenery on a daily basis! Only time, and the right lottery ticket, will tell whether or not that dream will come true.

Seriously, I’m so ready to just grab what I can and run away from everything right now. The kids, the dogs and the hubby are on my last nerve lately and I just want to get away from here for a while. I’m trying to just chill out as best as I can, I’ve been watching stuff on TV over the weekend that is light and funny in an attempt to lift my mood some, but nothing seems to be working.

So I’ve started picturing myself enjoying the sun on a deserted beach, sporting some totally awesome vintage sunglasses, surfing the net on my laptop, enjoying a tropical drink with an umbrella and an ocean breeze keeping me cool. I think that if I just keep imagining that enough, it might be enough to get me through stressful times. If not, then I’ll have to figure out a different day dream.

In the mean time, if there’s anyone out there that lives on a deserted beach that is looking to adopt a daughter, I think I might know where you can find one

I’ve dealt with my own inner demons most of my adult life. Most days, between years of therapy and medications, I have a pretty good handle on things. But every once in a while I have a day that just knocks me for a loop. Today is one of those days.

For no obvious reason, I woke up this morning in a “funk”. It wasn’t a “bad” morning, so to day, other than a little difficulty getting my son to get moving and ready for school, it was actually a pretty decent morning. Bur from the time the kids left for school, my energy has gone down hill and I’m just feeling BLAH! It might be weather related, because the weather has just been YUCK lately!

Days like today make me wish I had a way to escape the boring, mundane life that I live and run away to a life full of fun and excitement! You know what I’m talking about, don’t you? The type of life you see on TV and in the movies where you live in a big fancy mansion with cars and yachts and you spend your days out on the water enjoying the sun and the breeze coming off the water. And when you come home from spending the day on your yacht you get dressed in a gorgeous gown, put on your diamonds and your Technomarine watch and go out for an evening of fine food, fine wine and follow it up with dancing with your man!

BUT, back to reality…LOL! I know if I just would get moving and do something I’d probably feel a little better, but I just don’t have the ambition. I feel like I just want to go in and take a nap, but in a little more than an hour I have to go pick up brat gurl from the bus. Some days everything just feels like a huge and boring hassle. With the realization that the kids are going to be on spring break after tomorrow and we’re once again going to do NOTHING, well, I think you know what I’m thinking! I just wish that we could get away and do something, just for a day. Something fun that will make us all laugh and have a good time for a little while, rather than argue and fight!

OK, I’m sorry, I’m REALLY REALLY sorry! I know that I have a good life and I’m thankful for the things in life that I’ve been blessed with and even more thankful for the wonderful people that have touched my life. I don’t mean to whine, honestly. I’d just like to escape once, just for a day or even a few hours. But today’s not that day.

I don’t know what the problem was, but man did I ever have a rough night last night. What made it even worse was the fact that I knew I’d be waking up sometime around 4:00 AM this morning. But no matter how tired I was, sleep just didn’t happen the way I wanted it to last night. So I ended up spending a good part of the night listening to my husband and the dog alternating between passing gas and snoring and flipping the channels on the television. I was surprised to see how many channels were running commercials for directbuy over night. And I think that’s actually what I finally fell asleep to because I remember having a dream about building a fancy house with gorgeous kitchen cabinets that I had purchased from them….LOL! If only dreams would come true!