Can’t sleep, NEED to be sleeping!
Sep 6th, 2008 by justsimplyholly
It’s been a very interesting couple of days, to say the least! It’s also been very stressful, physically, mentally and emotionally. We’re dealing with things as best as we can, and trying to accept what the end result is.
I REALLY need to be sleeping right now, but my brain is going a million miles an hour! I have to make at least 2 batches of brownies tomorrow for my brothers “surprise” 50th birthday party. I quoted the word surprise because thanks to my brothers inability to be a decent human being, he was told about the party and was told because of him it was being canceled. Then they turned around less than 24 hours later and called everyone letting them know it was back on.
I love my brother with ALL of my heart, but he has a serious drinking problem! His oldest son is now experiencing legal problems because of his own addiction problems and my brother feels that the best thing they could do to “help” his son is to simply turn their backs on him and let him deal with it on his own! What my brother doesn’t seem to remember is that when he was almost 18 he had some legal problems himself, and that while they were upset about what he had done, our parents never put him out on the street or turned their backs on him, not for a second! I also experienced my own legal problems at the age of 20, and although my mother was very upset with me, she never once turned her back on me.
It’s heartbreaking to see my nephew go through what he is going through right now. He’s lost his job, his home and his fiancee because of his addictions. Other than his freedom, he doesn’t have much else to lose, except his family. He’s a broken man who is ashamed and embarrassed about what he has done, which lets me know that there is still hope for him! I told him what I thought he needed to do, whether or not he follows through with it is up to him!
But today my brother turned 50 and tomorrow is his 50th birthday party. I know why my brother is having a hard time right now, besides his own drinking problem. He shared his birthday with our father who passed away nearly 29 years ago and his brother in law who lost his battle with cancer just a few weeks ago. I know that he’s looking at his own life and the fact that he’s the only one left with a September 5th birthday. It has to be difficult, and it has to be scary for him. I’m hoping that he can pull himself together to realize if he doesn’t support his son, he’ll lose him. I could understand the “tough love” attitude if this kid had been in trouble his whole life, but he hasn’t, this is his first time in trouble in his 24 year life. There is still hope left for him, I can feel it in my heart!
However, I don’t know if there is any hope of me getting any sleep tonight…LOL
6 Responses to “Can’t sleep, NEED to be sleeping!”
I am really sorry to read about the problems within your family at the moment. One thing that does stand out is the fact that you care and I sincerely hope that it all turns out well in the future. My Dad adopted us three boys and despite our problems in our younger days he always supported us.
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I’m so sorry about your troubles with your family right now. I hope you got some sleep, and are going to have a wonderful time at the party today!
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You know it’s strange to read this because I was coming to tell you I tagged you for a What I learned from my mother meme.
It’s sad that your brother is turning his back on his son. Even when our children are of legal age, that doesn’t mean we have to turn our backs on them and not support them. I hope your brother wises up before it’s too late to repair the damage done.
{{{HUGS}}}
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That sounds stressfukl but lack of sleep makes it harder to cope. I go for a chickflisk, the ol’ hot milk or chocolate and a very hot shower just before bed. Then some distraction to think about like trying to compose a rhyming poem about kittens (or some other happy topic)
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All my sympathy towards u……Sometimes u have good times and sometimes bad but u should keep ur head high and face the challenges.
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I hope the party went well for you, and hopefully you’ve got some much needed sleep. Getting a good 8 hours of shut eye seems to help all the problems in the world, at least a bit.
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