Just Simply Holly

I’ve dealt with my own inner demons most of my adult life. Most days, between years of therapy and medications, I have a pretty good handle on things. But every once in a while I have a day that just knocks me for a loop. Today is one of those days.

For no obvious reason, I woke up this morning in a “funk”. It wasn’t a “bad” morning, so to day, other than a little difficulty getting my son to get moving and ready for school, it was actually a pretty decent morning. Bur from the time the kids left for school, my energy has gone down hill and I’m just feeling BLAH! It might be weather related, because the weather has just been YUCK lately!

Days like today make me wish I had a way to escape the boring, mundane life that I live and run away to a life full of fun and excitement! You know what I’m talking about, don’t you? The type of life you see on TV and in the movies where you live in a big fancy mansion with cars and yachts and you spend your days out on the water enjoying the sun and the breeze coming off the water. And when you come home from spending the day on your yacht you get dressed in a gorgeous gown, put on your diamonds and your Technomarine watch and go out for an evening of fine food, fine wine and follow it up with dancing with your man!

BUT, back to reality…LOL! I know if I just would get moving and do something I’d probably feel a little better, but I just don’t have the ambition. I feel like I just want to go in and take a nap, but in a little more than an hour I have to go pick up brat gurl from the bus. Some days everything just feels like a huge and boring hassle. With the realization that the kids are going to be on spring break after tomorrow and we’re once again going to do NOTHING, well, I think you know what I’m thinking! I just wish that we could get away and do something, just for a day. Something fun that will make us all laugh and have a good time for a little while, rather than argue and fight!

OK, I’m sorry, I’m REALLY REALLY sorry! I know that I have a good life and I’m thankful for the things in life that I’ve been blessed with and even more thankful for the wonderful people that have touched my life. I don’t mean to whine, honestly. I’d just like to escape once, just for a day or even a few hours. But today’s not that day.